The Interview
In short, the interview did not go as smoothly as I had hoped. In fact, it was close to being a total disaster so if God wants me to do the PGCE in Kings specifically, this will be His reassuring miracle for me to press on in that direction. I would give you specific details but I think that is unnecessary just now. If you really are THAT curious, you'll have to email or call me or something. (Anything to get you guys to stay in touch. Aren't I a little devious?) *GRIN*
Since the interview, though I was discouraged, I was reminded in so many ways and circumstances how truly blessed I am and it was a blessing in itself to be able to give thanks to the Lord. Even this morning, I was reading from an A.W. Tozer devotional 'The Pursuit of God' (which I should've probably read a LONG time ago) that complimented a comment I had passed onto a friend but had not hit me in my own situation to really focus on the Lord for who He is and not what He can do for us or can give us. The song "Turn your eyes upon Jesus" come to mind with the words "look full in His wonderful face and the things of this world will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace." I guess I'll share with you the poem that I read at the end of the chapter and the prayer I would like to agree with from that book as well.
Show me Thy face- one transient gleam
of loveliness divine,
And I shall never think or dream
of other love save Thine:
All lesser light will darken quite,
All lower glories wane,
The beautiful of earth will scarce
seem beautiful again.
Show me Thy face- my faith and love
shall henceforth fixed be,
and nothing here have power to move
my soul's serenity.
My life shall seem a trance, a dream,
and all I feel and see
Illusive, visionary- Thou
the one reality!
Show me Thy face- I shall forget
the weary days of yore,
the fretting ghosts of vain regret
shall haunt my soul no more.
All doubts and fears for future years
in quiet trust subside,
and naught but blest content and calm
within my breast abide.
Show my Thy face- the heaviest cross
will then seem light to bear;
There will be gain in every loss,
and peace with every care.
With such light feet the years will fleet,
life seem as brief as blest,
till I have laid my burden down,
and entered into rest.
-Author Unknown
So I end now this blog with this prayer:
" O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. In Jesus' name. Amen."
