Moving Forwards
It's the last week before the last of my classes start again. I should be reading up notes from last semester. I should be reading notes from previous years in preparation for this huge interview coming up on Friday. I should be writing loads of complaints to the math department to get them to sort out my scheduling (maybe). That seems to be a lot of 'should be's. There's been a sort of strange danger of making excuses such as I'd rather use this time to read non-school related books. I recently found a book expounding on Proverbs, which is what I'm reading in my time alone with God at the moment. Other noble-sounding excuses include letter writing, researching for future opportunities, organising events and I guess I could always make the list longer. Of course, it will be my own fault if I don't get the things I know should be done, done. The verse that comes to mind has to be James 4:17; not that, not doing maths is a sin (though some people might think so), but if you know to do GOOD (or how to do something worthwhile), and don't do it, surely that is foolishness.
I read a quote just this morning about how "it is not just the will to win that ensures victory but the will to prepare and move". Just looking at the destination and wanting to be there badly doesn't get you there. There is an element of faith which comes in as we take steps. God has definitely been teaching me this in my own prayers.
I was told this interview on Friday was going to take about 3 hours long (don't ask me why) and honestly, I was intimidated immediately by that. Then, on Sunday, we sang "I walk by faith, each step by faith, to live by faith. I put my trust in You... Every move I make is a step of faith. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. Every prayer I make is a prayer of faith. If my God is for me then who can be against me?" Is every step, move and prayer I've made really been in faith? Do you ever prayer those prayers where you think, "yea that's what I want and hopefully God wants that too in which case, He'll give it to me"? What sort of faith is that and yet I'm definitely guilty. We come to seek God's agenda, not our own. We pray because God has given us a glimpse of Himself, His purposes and His Will, and then in obedience we need to step out and ask God to enable us to get there, to fulfill it. What weapons then are formed against us, against us getting there? One which punctured a wound in my own flesh, fiery dart of fear. Fear cripples but perfect love casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). Praise God indeed!
Thank you for standing with me in prayer. You have no idea just how much I am humbled to know of so many people who take even a moment to pray for me, and just how encouraged I am and thankful and blessed I feel to have such a huge loving family. All glory to God!
